Hello Barcelona

Last night I was watching Vicky Christina Barcelona, while the movie was just so-so I loved the imagery and since I already have the travel bug I decided that I'm going to go back next summer so today I opened a separate savings account that no contains 6 dollars towards Barcelona next summer. I have been there once before, I got to celebrate my 13th birthday slicing a cake with a Spanish sword! Unfortunately I fell really ill during the trip (including a doctors visit to my hotel room, shots in the rump and vicarious pills that were swallowed all with packaging I could only make out 1 to 2 words on) resulting in me missing some of the things I was really wanting to see on my trip. It also was more of a planned trip than I would have liked. I am not a very touristy person when I visit places. I've been to new york city and never seen the Chrysler building or the statue of liberty but I don't feel that I really missed out.
So, I guess it's back to Barcelona! I have a friend that lives in the south of France that hopefully I'll be able to hop on a train and visit with as well.

Welcome to the bandwagon!

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Good day sun

The only thing I require in a house or apartment is windows.
Growing up with cereal box sized windows is the most depressing things.
I dream of big sunny rooms.

I'm not cut out for the porn industry.

Finding work has been proving more and more difficult where even my friends who have degrees from four year colleges can't find work. What hope is there for me being a second year college student who isn't currently enrolled? Sitting around the house all day because I literally have 50 cents to my name and no gas has proven rather difficult. I have a serious case of cabin fever. Out of desperation I decided to reply to an ad for a sales associate position at an adult shop in Portland, Oregon. The same day I applied for a cashier position at World Market. The following week I got a letter back from both businesses saying that I didn't have the qualifications for the positions I had applied for. This boggles my mind. I have been in a sales/cashier position since I turned 16 (5 years) which includes the last two years I spent as a sales associate at Nordstrom. But apparently I can't ring up porn and vibrators or candles and ethnic snacks. SUCH A CONFIDENCE BOOST!

Scent of a woman

The fragrance I'm in love with for fall has got to be the new True Religion perfume that was released this winter. It's so clean and fresh and a little bit girlie which will makes it the perfect everyday scent and a great summer scent. You don't have to be a True Religion denim fan ( It most certainly isn't my favorite) but the perfume is great! I was impressed. If you're a fan of fragrances too be sure to check out the freshest womens fragrance website Scent.net. What's your favorite everyday fragrance or special occasion fragrance?
I know if i'm feeling like a splurge I have to go for Viktor and Rolf Flowerbomb!

Seriously?

A funny story..

The other day we took one of our cars in to be serviced at the car repair place we've been using for years. When we went to go pick up our newly doctored automobile the guy hands us a bag of stuff and says "We've had this for a few years it's your guys' belongings from another car you had brought in."... Okay these were things that I haven't seen since about my sophomore year of high school. If they knew who they belonged to, when they pulled them out of a car they were fixing.. how come they never thought of contacting us? Some of the stuff was nostalgic and fun to go through being that all of it was mine but in the bottom of the bag were a pair of eyeglasses! Not just reading glasses but my nice prescription bi-focals that i got yelled at for days for losing! So, now I have these eyeglasses with a non-current prescription and I don't know what to do with them, I'd like to donate with them but i'm not sure of any drop off places or maybe there's an organiztion where you can mail them. Does anyone know anything about donating eyeglasses?

Guess where I'm headed next week.

A Haunting

5 reasons why A HAUNTING is the best daytime T.V. Program
(in no particular order of importance)

1. The re-enactment actors are polar opposites of the real people they are portraying.
2. Some people choose to go anonymous, where they are videotaped so all you can see is a ridiculous outline of their out of date hair style. Usually mullet-ish. So they can hide their identity in fear of their lives (over a haunting). Because paranormal beings obviously care which network programs you sell your story out to.
3. It's the most random show on the discovery channel.
4. The stupid sound they play like someone tapping an xylephone repeadidly before each commercial segment so you know that's the end of that "chapter"
5. What's better than a show that's scary and rediculously hilarious at the same time!

Miss Hepburn's Beauty Tips

Audrey Hepburn's Beauty Tips:

1. For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
2. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
3. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
4. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
5. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
6. People, even more than things have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
7. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself and the other for helping others.

Wordless Wednesday

The way things go.

I've been feeling kind of depressed lately, I think the whole lack of job thing is starting to get to me.
Today I found a job posting for a perfect fit and I spent all afternoon writing this amazing cover letter because it was a position I really wanted. I went to go back to it to get the information on where to go tomorrow and the posting was removed by the company.
That's how it seems to be going lately.

on another note, i've spent too much time dwelling on the past.
It just makes me feel sad and that I haven't come very far
when I thought I put all those things behind me.
I feel Stagnant.


Not to mention I missed the concert that I have been waiting for a couple months
now to go to tonight.
Andrew Bird is one of my favorite musicians and I couldn't get lame less than 30 dollar tickets
because I am jobless. If you get a chance you should listen to his new Album Noble Beast. The whole album is available right now to listen to freely on myspace.

Tales of Wonders

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Dude up

5. dude up, Informal. to dress in one's fanciest, best, or most stylish clothes; dress up: He got all duded up to go to the dance.

Brings a smile to your face

I hope this makes everyone's day a little brighter as it did mine!

Wordless Wednesday

Deer Creek Cemetery
Yamhill Country, Oregon

Paintball

Paintball is always something I have wanted to try. I know it's something my boyfriend loves so it could be a great date activity! A little dirty competition! As far as gear goes I wouldn't even know where to begin! Luckily there's a site that has all the paintball equipment I could need. From paintball masks and paintball hoppers to paintball Spyder upgrades i know that Ultimate Paintball will have me covered for my paintball gear. Right now they have some great steals on rainbow dye paintball 2000 round paintballs! Check it out.

Valentines day.

My Valentines day was one of the best days I've had in a very long time even though my boyfriend blew me off!

A good friend took me to the coast with him and his other 2 friends.
The couple was incredibly nice. We spent the day touring a pub, Hiking in Pacific city and wedding crashing.

The weather was AMAZING for the Oregon Coast.

Men in tights

The future is coming
and it's damn ugly.

Morgellons Disease

I've been following news on Morgellons disease for a little over a year now. For some reason it's something that has completely just captivated my curiosity.
If you don't know anything about it here is a great article I just read that kind of sums up
what Morgellons is as well as new research they've found linking it to fungus
or possibly genetically modified food.

This is a new disease that people are becoming afflicted with that
a lot of patients are being prescribed anti-psych medications.
Then others are being tested demanding answers to what they believe is a very
real condition.

What do you think about it? Do you think it's just delusions of parasites or that these people really
are afflicted with something that causes lesions, fibers growing out of their body and other serious symptoms?

There are a alot of great youtube videos and websites about moregellons disease too.


"In New Science magazine, Sept. 15-21 edition, Daniel Elkan describes a patient who for years has been "finding tiny blue, red and black fibers growing from intensely itchy lesions on his skin." These fibers appear like pliable plastic and can be several millimeters long. Some appear in a zig-zag pattern. These fibers can be as fine as spider silk, yet they are strong enough to distend the skin when pulled." Read More

I thought the site was starting to look a little devoid of photos.
I found this picture the other day when I was cleaning out my photo folder.
I was making fajitas and cut open this pepper and this is exactly what it looked like!
No altering what-so-ever.
It gave me a great laugh!

Laika

Laika (from the Russian: Лайка, a breed of dog, literally meaning "Barker" or "Howler") was a Soviet space dog (c. 1954–November 3, 1957) who became the first living mammal to orbit the Earth and the first orbital casualty. Little was known about the impact of space flight on living things at the time Laika's mission was launched. Some scientists believed humans would be unable to survive the launch or the conditions of outer space, so engineers viewed flights by non-human animals as a necessary precursor to human missions.^[1] The United States used chimpanzees; the Soviet program elected to use dogs. Laika, a stray, originally named Kudryavka (Russian: кудрявка Little Curly-Haired One), underwent training with two other dogs, and was eventually chosen as the occupant of the Soviet spacecraft Sputnik 2 that was launched into outer space on November 3, 1957.

Laika died a few hours after launch, presumably from stress and overheating, probably due to a malfunction in the thermal control system. The true cause and time of her death was not made public until 2002; instead, it was widely reported that she lived for several days.^[2] However, the experiment proved that a living passenger could survive being launched into orbit and endure weightlessness. It paved the way for human spaceflight and provided scientists with some of the first data on how living organisms react to spaceflight environments. On April 11, 2008, Russian officials unveiled a monument to Laika. A small monument in her honour was built near the military research facility in Moscow which prepared Laika's flight to space. It features a dog standing on top of a rocket.^[3][4]

The News

For the past two days I have been home sick, I still haven't gotten around to switching my cable to the digital switchover nonsense either. The only channels I get are news channels. I thought.. "i'm sick i can tolerate the news for a while." How wrong i was! Since when does the news only have about 12 stories that they repeat through out every news segment of the day for 48 hours?! I feel like i'm in that groundhogs day movie.

Lapband surgery

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Cooper ate my grilled cheese sandwich in one bite.

Cooper the beast.

I'm house sitting for the next two days, not only house sitting but dog sitting and teen sitting as well.
What do 14 year old girls like to do?
Go to the mall, hang out with their friends? Anything else?
Boys?
Anyway, i'm not here so much to take care of her just to be another body at the home overnight.
My days are still free.
It's a pretty sweet deal, I didn't really feel like being at home anyways these next few days and their house is like my dream house tha I picture in my head. The kitchen is gorgeous! It's a small older house but the inside is completely decked out as if anthropologie was a house.
It's charming.
The dog that Im watching is the size of a bear. Standing on all fours he hits me at the hip. But he's not just skinny and tall he's huge around too. He literally is a beast!

So long furry friend.

Today we had to take Nikita to the vet again because she wasn't getting any better.
My mom called me at work to let me know that they had to put her down.
I'm so sad that I couldn't have been there and I didn't get to say good bye
let alone be stuck at work crying my eyes out.
She was the best dog for 15 years that anyone could have asked for.
I'm going to miss her so much always laying with me when I'm sick and
coming home and having her laying in the front lawn to say "hey nikita"
Anyway, Good bye wonderful wonderful dog.
I'm so glad that we could take you home from the humane society to be with us.

Happy New years.

What a fake holiday!
At least i got off work early
and i had a surprisingly fabulous new years eve!
Low key is way better.

k-9 less new years?

I came home late last night from work to find out that my 14 year old dog that we adopted at 4 months old is really really sick. She's been throwing up the whole evening and on into today and refuses to eat anything. I know she's old and has epilepsy that she takes medication for (which she won't take right now either) but I don't want my new year to start out with her gone!
I'm kind of flustered. Do I stay home with her and my family? Or go out with my new guy?
In a way I don't really want to be here in case anything happens, but I'll probably end up regretting that.

All i want for my 21 st birthday is

a jar of anti-wrinkle cream!
ok not exactly.
today while waiting in line at starbucks for my overpriced americano i ran into this woman and her daughter that i used to babysit. WOW she was all grown up like a teenager and i remember when she still had to go to bed at 7! i felt so old in that moment. 20 going on 50.

ASPCA vs. starving african children

i think those new ASPCA commercials make me feel more guilty for something i didnt do than those starving african kids commercials.

But that's why they are called Buckle jeans

i remeber why i hate working in retail during the holidays. The day before christmas i had a customer come down and i asked if she was finding everything alright when she exclaimed she was looking for buckle brand jeans. I said oh sorry they only carry those at the buckle. and then gave her easy to follow directions to the buckle. she then looked at me dead in the eyes and goes, no. the girls upstairs said they were down here and i said well maybe they meant the buckle was down here on this floor. and she looks at me with all the worlds hate in her eyes and lividly says no! i bought them down here last year! and i said well i dont know what to tell you but they only carry them at the buckle. so i take her to another employee and ask her if we carried buckle jeans and she gave her the same response as i had. the customer then hands on hip and eyes glowing red goes well i bought them down here last year you guys carry them i will bring them in and show you the reciept! as she finishes saying this in a manner to demean me as if im stupid i quickly come back I REALLY DONT APPRECIATE BEING SPOKEN TO LIKE THAT! and she just walks off. i love the christmas spirit working in retail brings.

The Handkerchief

whatever happened to the Handkerchief? Isnt that being green in one of its truest forms? take a lesson from your elders! is the world ready for a handkerchief comback? how many trees are used each year to make tissues?

Boots of Spanish Leather

"Oh, but if I had the stars from the darkest night
And the diamonds from the deepest ocean,
I'd forsake them all for your sweet kiss,
For that's all I'm wishin' to be ownin'."

- Bob Dylan

Gorgeous eyes

I am a huge fan of Nude eyeshadow, but it has to be special! When i ran across this Bobbi Brown "Shimmering Nudes" palette I immediately fell in love. It contains such a great range of colors, beautiful for the holidays. I love love love the dark charcoal color on the far right, easy way to take this palette from day to evening.

Wes Anderson

"My project was to... find beauty in the flaws and vice versa"
While I was watching T.V. the other day
I spotted Wes Anderson in a T.V. Commercial.(and anyone who knows me knows I'm a HUGE Wes Anderson fan)
Whoever came up with the ad did a beautiful job of assembling it.
American Express right now is running a promotion called The Members Project.
The ad features all American Express cardholders that have all made a difference in the world. Their project is letting us vote towards charitable organizations, help vote your favorite organization into the top 5 and they will have a share of the 2.5 million that American Express is donating amongst them. I voted for the Alzheimer's Early Detection Matters since it's something my family is facing now.
Go check out The Members Project now and vote!

Emotion

No one sings with this much emotion anymore! You can see the veins in his forehead!

Quote

"If you live to be 100 years I hope I live to be 100 minus one day
that way I never have to live without you"
-Winnie the Pooh

Blog roll

I've been discovering a lot of fun new blogs lately just wanted to share them with you.


Holy Cuteness - A blog full of photos of adorable animals.

Club Narwhal- A blog stacked with wit and charm

Annie Spandex- Great indie fashion and all around glamour fun.

The Peanut Butter Blog- A whole blog dedicated to peanut butter!

Weird eBay Listings- A compilation of all the craziest listings from E-bay.

Young, Professional and Bored- Great celebrity news and internet finds.

An Ordinary Life- Hippest blog around for moms

Hatnim Lee- A wonderful photographer

The perfect low heeled boot

I have searched all august for the perfect boot to wear this fall with dresses and jeans.
Finally after a grueling search I found them!
These Suede boots are perfect for all with a 12 inch calf circumference they are a bit roomier. The tan color (although they come in black and chocolate as well) is a great alternative to the darker brown boots out right now this way you can wear it with other brown hues or with all the popular greys that are coming out for fall 2008.
These boots are comfy and have the perfect slouch to them and cute belted embellishments! I can't wait to wear mine with fun tights. I believe they are 79.95

Phantom of the Opera

Today I went to go see The Phantom of the Opera at Keller Auditorium in Portland, Oregon.
It was fantastic. The last opera I went to was Aida and that was quite a while ago. I loved the special effects they used.

Comcast

Today I called to disconnect my old Comcast service at the house with the roommate I don't get a long with. When I called to have it disconnected I was told that an order for the disconnect had already been set in motion. So of course I got really upset they said that in order to verify account information she had to have my name and social and pretend to be me. So I talked to a comcast supervisor who went through the phone conversation and apparently they didn't even verify any information so her answer to me was "they didn't let go of any pertinent information" WELL THEY STILL ACCESSED MY ACCOUNT and her only thing she said was "sorry it was a mistake" it wasn't a mistake it was someone not doing their job. That could have been a huge lawsuit for them if they let go of my information at all. So Comcast thinks it's okay to let other people access your account turn your service off or on maybe even give out your personal information like your social security and billing information and it's just a mistake?

Reminder to self:

You work for a paycheck
not a Playcheck
so stop spending all your money!

Awards

So while I was away I guess I won two blog awards!
Yay!
Who knew you could be on vacation and get rewarded!


The first Award I received was from Wendi at The Freebie Blogger
and the other from
Deb at Dine-o-meter

Thank you lovely ladies!

On my way.

Things are good
things are fine.
I feel some sort of weird peace with myself
and yet extremely nervous at the same time.
I know my living situation right now is just temporary
I'm starting to make plans for myself again.
I'm motivated I want to go out and do stuff.
I'm buying a plane ticket to France for 800 dollars
to visit Camille.
I'm going to Portland Saturday market tomorrow to meet some girl i've been
talking to on AIm since i was a 14 ( we met because we were planning on
going to the same art college and neither of us ended up there!)
I'm riding the train there. I'm being independent
I'm picking black berries at my farm today.
I lost 2 pant sizes and I've no clue what I've done.
I guess just feeling too helps.
I'm not going to school this fall
I keep failing my classes, not that I don't have a passion for learning
but not what they want to teach me. I cant vow to log on every day at different times to turn in worthless
papers.
I want to own a pie shop
I want to spend my days baking
I want to educate myself
I want to spend hours reading in the sun for the rest of the summer
and near the fireplace in the fall.

Good to be back

Thank you to everyone who left me comments and bothered to mosey on over to my blog while I was away. It's been a doozy of a week. I am now done with school and will not be taking any courses this fall seeing as i still owe 800 dollars for this term! Plus I think I really want to open a pie shop... random I know but it's something I would love to do.

BE BACK SOON

Sorry I've been delinquent!

Sorry to all you entrecarders I haven't dropped back on in the last couple days

I am living in an internet/tv less house it's incredibly dull!

Blame it on Comcast who told me that it would take them 11 days to come out and plug some wires in! Geeze seriously!?!

I do miss updating but I guess i'm out living my life

I will try to enjoy my "vacation"

talk to you all soon!


P.s. I just spent 200 dollars on jeans someone
I feel a bit sick!

Sleeeeep please

I don't know where I got the brilliant idea to drink a Large americano at 8 pm but now my body is exhausted and yet I can't sleep and my tummy feels sick from all the coffee.

Just remembered it is Sunday and called the Jury duty line... and learned I have jury duty on Thursday. Yuck.

I'm moving tomorrow morning and my left arm is completely gimpy from the tetanus shot!

Okay i guess with all those bum things I need to find one good thing going on right now....I guess Tuesday is payday and all my stress and hard work from the big sale with be kind of rewarding.

The future of your health

Now that my grandma is going through Alzheimer's, I wish I would have previously known about C'elle and all the wonderful things that they are achieving through their stem cell research. Take a look at this recent article about C'elle and be sure to visit the site to see how you can save yourself and close relatives from life altering diseases. C'elle is a break through in the science world, which saves valuable stem cells from your month period and they will take care of them properly in case you or someone related to you by blood should get sick in the future. These are uncertain times, so why not take control now. C'elle makes collection simple. C'elle even has a way to track your monthly visitor so visit the calender page and order the kit that works best for you so you can be prepared for your next period. If you're still uncertain be sure to check out the Celle Client Testimonial. Be sure to read the article below for more life saving information!

Taking Control: Future Therapies for a Host of Serious Diseases May Be Found in Women's Menstrual Blood

July 07, 2008: 01:28 PM EST


OLDSMAR, Fla., July 7 /PRNewswire-FirstCall/ -- With today’s hectic lifestyle, where most women are juggling careers, family, relationships, and a host of activities, the idea of possibly facing a serious illness in the future is not something that readily comes to mind -- especially when a woman is in the prime of her life. But what most women don’t know, is that the key to treating a number of possibly life-threatening diseases that she, a parent, a sibling or even her children may face in later years, such as osteoporosis, heart disease, stroke, Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s disease, may be found within her own body -- in vital stem cells, which can now be harvested from her own menstrual blood.

Now, thanks to the revolutionary research and technology of C’elle, a service dedicated to providing women with a safe and easy method of collecting and preserving stem cells found in her menstrual fluid each month, even the busiest woman can take control of her future, right in the privacy of her own home. With C’elle’s non-invasive collection process, menstrual cells are processed and cryo-preserved (stored at a very low temperature) for potential cellular therapies that may be used in the future. These self-renewing cells one day may even be used for sports medicine or cosmeceutical treatments, such as anti-aging therapies.

"C’elle enables and empowers a woman to take control of her future health, and possibly of those genetically closest to her, in a fast, painless and stress free way," said Michelle Kay, Marketing and Sales Manager for C’elle. "We live in exciting times, as science and technology are discovering how extremely valuable menstrual blood stem cells really are, and the enormous treatment potential they represent for future therapies. C’elle’s ongoing research is supporting these promising findings."

For more information about C’elle, please call 1-877-892-3553 or visit www.celle.com.

Not for the easily queesy.

This morning I had to run to the doctor and try to get in so I could get a tetanus shot. Turns out I haven't had one since 1993. Right now my arm is like throbbing. It hurts so bad and it's already starting to swell.

Yesterday at work I decided it would be a smart idea i suppose to ram my hand into the gun we use to reticket clothes. Its just an inch long needle sticking out of a plastic piece. It doesn't do much but when I was attempting to recap it the cap fell down and instead of pushing the cap over the needle i pushed my hand down the entire thing..... at first I started cracking up then crying lol. It took me a minute to realise it hurt. Then I had to fill out a million workmans comp forms.


Now I cant move my left arm and i have to move all my stuff tomorrow into my new house haha. This will be a lot of fun.

The Oddest thing that's ever happened to me

Today I went through my mail and got a letter from Nordstrom.
I figured it was someone being funny writing me a thank you note for shopping with them because we are supposed to write thank you notes to our customers.
Anyway, I open the card and ..

Miss Arika!
Thanks so much for buying those adorable mary-janes!
I know you will love them!
Let's hang out very soon!
Always,
------


Anyway, its a letter from my friend that is in the ICU. What a random time to get this letter.. not to mention I bought the mary-janes from her in... November or 07. I wonder if it just never got mailed until now or it got lost in the mail or she just wrote it but it sounds like she wrote them when I bought them. I just think it's crazy that when I'm worried and all stressed out about her I get this letter right now of all times.

keep thinking happy thoughts for her :)

Wordless Wednesday x2

Growing up is hard to do.

But, I"m sure you all know that.

I guess my friends accident was a lot worse than I knew.
As far as I know she's still in the ICU
Both of us not being people that pray
please just think happy thoughts for her.
Hopefully she will be moved out of ICU soon and I can go visit her.


I"m struggling with this new girl at work, it's become a big problem and I think
most people are frustrated with her. I can honestly say I've never met anyone like her.
I guess you have to just find the good in every person and focus on that to get you through.

Every year in october my dads side of the family rents a beach house and we all stay in it for about 4 days this has happened every year i can remember since i was like 2. It's always Me, my mom my dad my sister my uncle and my aunt her husband and when matthew was born, matthew. Well this will be the first beach trip that we go on since matthews passed away and my dad is going to be gone rafting the grand canyon and my mother can't get time off work and my sister will be away at college in Tacoma. So, I still really want to go but it's going to be awkward and it has been bringing up really painful memories to plan it. The rest of my family still really wants to go even my aunt I hope it's not just going to be a cry fest.. it will be really different not having Matthew there.

Tonight I am attending a support group meeting with my mom for the first time for people with loved ones who have Alzheimer's. My mom asking me to go with her was her way of letting me know that my grandma has officially been diagnosed with Alzheimer's. This was a huge thing to dump on me. So we'll see how the meeting goes tonight. I knew she was struggling with memory stuff but I guess now it's like set in stone? It makes it official which is really scary and sad.


My sister will be leaving for college soon and since she's going so far away my parents have been spending every waking moment with her which i totally understand but I'm still right here.. i guess i just feel neglected which is really pathetic since I'm like 20 years old. But it's not that she's just leaving for college they are spending a ton of money on her for everything. She just went to Greece and came back so that was a huge deal and my mom spent a ton of time with her after her small trip and she just graduated high school and had a birthday all in these last two months. I guess my mom is my closest friend that I have around here since everyone i was close to has moved away and it sucks because i haven't been able to find people that are just like the people that moved away. I don't think anyone else is like them and I'm flirting with the idea of moving to Eugene which i would really like to do. I guess part of it I don't want to replace them.

I don't know if I want to finish school right now. I feel like I have a lot of things on my plate and I can hardly afford it let alone i bet cost will only go up, i don't know what I want to do for sure and the economy is horrible and I only make a tiny bit above minimum wage if I don't make commission.

I do however feel stable in one area, my job. It's going better right now that I could have imagined. When I first started in TBD and Individualist I was really uncomfortable and very uncomfortable with my manager. Now I feel like I can actually talk to her and work with her. I really like my department I'm understanding the fashions in TBD a lot more than when I first started, it's a lot to get used to! I have a love for very classical clothes and TBD is alll about mixing prints and not being matching at all.

My cousin moved this week from really close to me to california too. It sucks but thank god for the internet and now I have someone to visit in san fransisco.


I know things will get better but for right now I just need to find my balance and find what makes me happy.

update

I haven't been around much. Work has been really busy which is kind of good for a change but also really stressful and then 3 of the girls from my department left, one was fired and 2 quit. So, now we are down to 3 of us that have been there for a while and then one new girl.. who by the way I am going to have to try really hard to find some way to get a long with her. She's really really sweet it's just let me start by saying she's in a sorority and has mostly worked at abercrombie and fitch. the other day she stopped what she was doing came over to me and asked " If the line is busy do I just hang up and try again later or what?" ......... My co worker had to just walk away or else I'm pretty sure she would have laughed so hard she cried. Anyway, It should get back to normal soon and I just found out that one of my good friends got in a really bad car accident last night and was life flighted to Portland so keep happy thoughts for her.

sickening

Hog dog fights - often referred to as "hog catch trials" and "hog dog rodeos" - are public events where dogs are released to attack pigs in a penned arena. The crowd cheers as the dogs, mostly pit bulls, tear at the animals' ears, snouts, groins and tails. For anyone who has witnessed a hog dog fight, it is the agonizing screams of the trapped and terrified pigs that truly encapsulates the whole ugly business. Hog dog fighting is even more inexcusable because it is staged animal fighting billed as family entertainment. Attend almost any hog dog event and you'll see mothers and children in the audience, cheering on the attacking dogs and their trainers.


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Cool Freebie

I am always on the look out for great desktop wallpapers but don't trust all those download sites, plus come on, they are mostly of naked women. Anyway, I was doing research for my geography project and visited the national geographic website and became utterly sidetracked from my project. They have some of the neatest backgrounds available for free on there. You don't have to worry about the size like you do on Google images. I don't know I just stumbled upon it and thought they were really neat. CLICK here to get your own.
this totally made my day.

Sleeping

Yesterday at work was so stressful that I've spent my entire day off today sleeping even though I should be catching up on homework.. but honestly who isn't right now doing something leisurely when they should be doing something else... come on. My manager asked me on Saturday if I could possibly come in on Sunday (My day off) to help close and such and I stupidly said okay. I come in at 1:30 and 20 minutes later one of the girls tells me she's leaving because it has been really slow. Then human resources calls another girl off the floor to talk to her for an undisclosed amount of time. All Then the third and final girl that was there in this 20 minutes gets a walk up appointment for pre-selecting for Anniversary sale. Instead of just preselecting in our departments only she takes them around the whole store. and keeps saying when she's done she's leaving early because it's slow ...? When she finally finishes with them around 4:30 or 5 she clocks out and doesn't help me with any of the closing duties meanwhile the girl that went to human resources didn't come back and when I called up to see if she was still closing with me they said that she and human resources had gone home a couple hours ago.. i guess she was fired and no one bothered to say I wouldn't have any help! All of this would have been fine if we actually were slow then i would have just been at moderate pace but i litteraly was running from one end of the department to the other all day.... I ended up selling 2,200 dollars worth of merchandise from my department.



Anyway, so while I was napping today I was right in that in between sleep and awake. I'm pretty sure I was conscious but sleeping so weird anyways all of a sudden i was trying to turn over to disable the alarm on my cell phone before it went off and I felt like I was paralyzed I couldn't move and all. It was the weirdest feeling because it felt like it was real. Then I tried again and still couldn't move my arms out of sleeping position and finally i was like freaking out in my head and went to scream for help but i couldn't get my body to open my mouth at all. So creepy when it feels like it's real. Then I just started hearing static and i decided to like try to move my entire body in one big push and i "woke up" or moved. I don't even want to feel that again.


Now I have two weeks worth of homework to catch up on plus all of next weeks homework because anniversary sale starts on the 18th and I know I work like 10 hour days for a whole straight week.

Zenni Optical

I've been looking for new glasses for awhile-- especially sunglasses since it's summer time but prescription sunglasses are so expensive! I was so excited when I saw Zenni on Fox . They offer prescription glasses online for as little as 8 dollars wow. Last time I bought glasses they were around 200 just for the frames! Visit ZenniOptical.com to view their huge variety stylish frames and almost any kind of lens you could need.

Halva

My sister just got back last night from a 10 day trip in Greece and brought back halva which I had never had before. It's so delicious if you've never had it here are some directions on how to make it at home.

The fourth of the Seventh Month

I honestly hate fourth of July. I think it is the most stupid un-American over rated holiday ever. I always get bored way to fast and since I'm not as criminally brain dead as other Americans watching things explode and bright lights doesn't get me excited past like the first one. Are the fireworks supposed to represent like "the bombs bursting in air" if so.. what a stupid thing to celebrate and re-enact? Why would we want to make it look like we are in war again.. which we are. Not that I'm "un American" or anything i just think that fourth of july doesn't even have to do anything with celebrating the united states anymore it's like one day where rednecks come out and wear their red white and blue bandannas and soccer moms in their flag old navy shirts. Shouldn't you be celebrating your country more so on EVERY other day but fourth of july which kind of cancels out patriotism and why do we buy all these things on fourth of july for picnics and apparel that all have made in china stamps on them... seriously.
Anyway guess I'm kind of cranky.

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Jury Duty

This morning I have jury duty.
Except last night I slept for an hour and a half
because my tonsils are so swollen I was having trouble breathing.
Now i have to drive a half hour to the courthouse.. this should be interesting.

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Loss of Brain matter

I saw this trailer when I went to go see Wall-E tonight.
I started crying in the middle of the trailer because I was laughing so hard.
This has to be a joke! What happened Disney! Seriously WHAT would posses
you to put this movie out?!
I can't even speak.
Their slogan is "50 Percent Warrior 50 % lover .. 100 % chihuahuas

Things I fell in love with over the weekend

1. In Bruges
2. The Freebie Blogger
3. Wall-E
4. Sunshine
5. Olay Quench Body Lotion
6. Man Babies
7. Phantom Planet -Our house

Janet Taylor

I found the following post on The Nodding Tree Remedies Myspace. They are a local band from Salem and pretty good. Anyway I just thought I would repost it here because it made me laugh out loud ..
currently in Salem we have a mayor named Janet Taylor who I happen to be incredibly against and somehow she just won our current election again. What a shame.

So enjoy this propaganda brought to you by The Nodding Tree Remedies minds.

"Salem's mayor, Mrs. Taylor, is a heartless hoebag.
Her reign of power has been going on for too long.
Our children are not safe in Oregon's capital, Janet Taylor feeds on thier blood.
She's been spotted swimming the Willamette river with a dead puppy in her teeth.
She is immune to Salem's rising pollution problems due to the deadly acid that coarses through her veins, therefor she has no concern for a cleaner Oregon.
Janet Taylor does not support the local music scene, she approved the destruction of the kiosks( round billboards) off downtown Liberty street, and has openly attacked independent business(the heart of the Salem music scene) in Salem by supporting the surge of multimillion dollar, non local business.
Janet Taylor is hurting our community and threatens Salem's future with intentions of personal benifit. Mrs. Taylor's wealth and power cannot stop us, but if we all wake up dead one morning we will have a prime suspect, Janet Taylor.
She supports war and President Bush.
Her agenda is obsurd. She caters to the rich with the construction of overpriced plazas and convention centers, while many of the low income residents get the short end of the stick.
Her veiws and ideals are Reaganistic and immoral.....
....and she kills minorities, supports the meth trade, police brutality, and is a sex addict( not the good kind). Her soul is a swamp of ignorance and filth, etc,etc.....
Mrs. Taylor is too strong to defeat, we can only hide our children for so long.
Run for the hills, Janet Taylor is an evil witch and is not fit for her position of power.
Nodding Tree Remedies say "no" to Janet Taylor.
Pray for her wretched soul.
In Salem, the Man is keeping us down and has a name,
Janet Taylor.

God help us"
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Freebie!

New Shoes make everything better.

I haven't left my house in 3 days and some twisted way I ended up with Strep Throat. This makes it the 5th time this year so far and that means
TONSILLECTOMY
that word is so warm isn't it.
a 15 min procedure for a week and a half's worth of recovery time.
Has anyone had this done as an adult? What was the recovery like for you.
I've been having trouble breathing cause my tonsils are touching.
The only thing that brightened my day today was the shoes I finally ordered from
Nordstrom came and I ripped open the package and was extremely excited
then realized that the shoes in the box that I had received would have been able to fit
the jolly green giant. They were 2 sizes to big. Before I checked the size on the shoe i seriously
questioned the size of my feet. Now this normally would have only made my day a little sad but
these shoes have been sent to The Rack and now I can't even exchange them!
I have been waiting for these shoes since decemberish when we got them!

scheming

There's a big giveaway coming up! So stay tuned!

I'm giving away something juicy
Something Coture

Who Killed the muesli eaters?

I will admit I'm a Muesli junkie! But, the last few times I've gone to the grocery store I have not been able to find it anywhere. I look up and down the aisle and yet they have a huge granola section and even a giant array of kashi cereals you think they'd have one tiny spot for muesli. I'm I the only person left on earth that eats it? I swear I have never had trouble finding it before.

it's a very weird moment indeed when you realize
that the people are you closest to in your life have started
to drift away not only from you but from everyone else as well
when your small close knit group of friends has somehow turned into a ripple where
everyone spreads farther and farther out.
Is there a way to reverse it?
Do you move on?
Do you follow them so you can stay close.
What if it's like the only people you've ever met that make you
feel truly like yourself when you are around them.

6/18/2008

I'm still secretly kind of crying about the short hair.
I hate it. Its not so much that I mind having the short hair,
although I admit I miss my lazy pony tail, it's just the cut that I hate.
I don't know what possessed the stylist to cut two pieces in the front like an inch and a half
shorter than the rest of my hair and make it all piecey when I told her I wanted
it all the same length? And when I walked in with hair to my shoulders
I specifically said I don't want it much shorter than it is now
maybe like.. half an inch shorter. Now I have it to my chin...
I must have the worlds shortest neck indeed.
I was hoping the weather would be nice today but in traditional Oregon fashion
it's a gloomy day.. IN JUNE.
Yesterday I went up to the rack and I was so excited I found the pants that
I was looking for and i got to buy a size smaller than usual! Woo.
That's always exciting but now I'm kind of freaking out because most of my clothes are too big and I don't have the money to afford a new wardrobe. Frustrating.

Down Under

Today is my first day of my two week vacation from work.
I'm already "dying" of boredom.
I slept in late got up ate some food looked out the window then
watched a terrible movie called Catacombs.
What a waste of time.. plus who puts the singer PINK as a lead
role in a movie??!
Atleast the main girl (shannyn Sossamon) had super cute hair.

quote of the day

Take it to heart.



"death is not the greatest loss in life. the greatest loss is what dies inside of us while we live."
-norman cousins

Hello Summer

Goodbye hair!


The first bits of summer showed themselves today, finally a nice day on my day off.
I signed up for summer classes today
what a way to spend vacation.
So, I thought I would chop of my hair
i lost 5 inches!

have a good summer!