When I'm old

When I'm old I hope to still be in as much love as my grandparents are. They still take turns cooking for each other and setting the table even if it's only the two of them. They still give each other kisses and pat each other on the bottom (that may sound weird to some of you) but in some ways it's cute that they can still be like that after 70 years of marriage.

Money Changes everything

There must be some law of phsysics I missed one of the countless days I stayed home "ill". It should be common sense but people do it all the time. Friend + money never mix. It's always a recipe for another atom bomb. In the wise words of 80's icon Cyndi lauper "money changes everything." I have two close friends feuding with me over two seperate reasons. I pretty much just wanted to get drunk and black out for the rest of the night but when I noted that wasn't an option due to the lack of liquor in my cabinet I realized that I shouldn't sit around feeling sorry for myself if two people whom I really care about are going to start picking fights with me and be angry with me for no reason, or if they do have a reason they don't care to explain it which I belive kind of defeats the purpose of being angry at that person in the first place? Are people turning back into time back to when we were four and five? "Jeff why are you mad at me" "WELL YOU SHOULD KNOW!" "no,I really don't!" It kind of ended at that so I'm still really lost. The other day I went over to his house beliveing it would just be jamie him and i watching some rediculous 90's movie like rumble in the Bronx again but instead I realised that he had invited about 5 other people and before I knew it Jamie and I were being shoved out the door to go buy soda for him and his friends. I went to the store, paid for his drinks and came back only to be shooed out of his house by his mother for thinking that we were all drinking. I asked jeff to pay me back but he lashed out on me saying he didn't have money and I was thinking "wow you just invited me over here to buy you something then I leave" So he says he'll pay me back the next day. (Him knowing full well i'm in a financial bind with moving to New Jersey.)Next day passes and I'm still not re-imbursed. It all was off of that and somehow I am a horrible friend for asking him to pay me back? So i'm in trouble for doing him a favor?? What kind of bull shit is that?
The next friend is a troll named Sam. She lashes out on me about moving to New Jersey?!? She thinks I'm making everything up some wild idea about how I'm moving to New Jersey and that it sounds stupid and dangerous and no one would hire and au pair from oregon when they could get one from new jersey and apperantly i'm not qualified were her words. I wanted to tell her she's not qualified to work in the tools section at SEARS. Mostly because she has a vagina. "It insults me that you think i would belive that you're actually going to live with some stranger in new jersey, who would hire a stranger from another state pay for them to fly across country to watch their kids?!" "Yeah sam, I'm making it up...I was just planning on telling everyone i'm leaving then sit in my house for the next year while buying new jersey postcards of ebay to pretend post mark from there!" I think this argument was the most puzzling, I am quite postive that I have no idea how this constitutes and argument? What's the point? Why is she mad at me that she thinks that i'm crazy about this new jersey thing??!" I guess I can't let it get me down because it's their fault for being dumb. But I didn't expect all my friends to abandon me right before I left. I still have two months here.

Dimethyltrptamine

This is really really interesting.

New Jersey

I just found out that I am most likely moving to New Jersey in just a little over a month. It's kind of scary and exciting at the same time. Except I don't know anyone in New Jersey and I've never been there before. I'm moving to become a live in nanny but the kids are like 16 and 12 so all i have to do is cart them around to school and their friends houses.

New Jersey

I just found out that I am most likely moving to New Jersey in just a little over a month. It's kind of scary and exciting at the same time. Except I don't know anyone in New Jersey and I've never been there before. I'm moving to become a live in nanny but the kids are like 16 and 12 so all i have to do is cart them around to school and their friends houses.

Summertime Reading

I am excited for this summer. With the slight possibility of going away to work in some foreign country about to become reality my favorite thing to do in summertime is to lay out in the sun and read. I collect books all year long through the school year when I am too distracted to enjoy it and I make a list and read all summer long. The guilty pleasure part is that they are mostly mindless easy reads.

Bees.

Bees are really fascinating to me. In my free time I like to read about them. I've always wanted to learn how to bee keep, but unfortunately I live in the suburbs. Today when I was watering my garden, I went to check on the radishes because they are almost ready to harvest. There was a bee soaking wet from when I had just spent 10 minutes watering and couldn't fly; So, I picked it up and let it sit on my hand as I walked over to a sunny area for it to dry itself. It was so fascinating just to watch it dry it's wings clean it's legs and fur as well as its face with it's little legs, at times taking it's hind legs all the way upward onto it's back. I watched it clean it's little mouth and retract it's stinger to clean it as well all with such coordination like a ballet. Around 15 minutes later after its last little flutter for drying it's wings it finally flew off.

"Honeybees depend not only on physical contact with the colony, but also require it's social companionship and support. Isolate a honeybee from her sisters and she will soon die."
- The Queen Must Die: And Other Affairs of Bees and Men

Post-it notes

Whenever I need a Post-it I can never ever find one or anything that will work instead such as paper and tape. However, when I'm cleaning around my desk I always find 5 little stacks of them and think why the hell do I have so many post-its and when will I ever need these.

good friends are good.

I think I collect jobs. I get bored at meaningless jobs way too easy. But I have had numerous jobs all in extremely different fields and from every job I've kept like a little souvenir. I have no idea why. I just realized this today when i was cleaning my room. Which hasn't been cleaned in like 8 months. Ew.

If you died

When was the last time you actually stopped to think for two seconds about how fucking incredible it is that you are alive and all things things you might have missed. Remember those kids that died in your high school so young? And all the things you've taken for granted since then. All the strange little accidents or random sicknesses where people die so unexpectedly....would you be satisfied with your life so far? Remember the last time you drank 7up out of a cup and the fizz tickled your nose or the last time you just spent an entire day outside in the sunshine just enjoying it? Remember the last time you cried and how much better you felt after words. What kind of secrets would you leave behind?

The beatles

You can only listen to the beatles for so long until your head wants to explode.

Internet broken

Internets broken, really frustrating. It won't connect to any wireless network even though it shows all the ones available around my area.
Anyone got any ideas?

Crazy Dream

Last night I dreamt that Modest Mouse came over for Thanksgiving dinner. It was the most random thing ever. To everyone else it was normal that they were there haha. And then we all drank lots of Jack Daniels.

Today was pretty much un-eventful which those days are always nice to have once in awhile. I spent the whole day sleeping which kind of was a shame since it was so beautiful out.
So if you have myspace you probably noticed a couple days ago they had that obnoxious "upload your picture to make yourself a pirate" thing.. I decided to upload a picture of jesus...
Jesus as a pirate

mm waffles

The weather outside today is absolutely gorgeous. I wish I had more time to spend outside.
I went to go water my miniature garden today and half my plants were missing. I guess the dog decided it would be fun to run through a big patch of mud the other day when it was rainy because there are about 2 feet deep paw prints running back and forth from one end to the other. Crazy dog.
On another note school is going terribly at the moment. This term I decided to only take one class online but the instructor doesn't use a calendar or due dates so I will be oblivious to whole weeks passing by, it doesn't help that it's a law enforcement class. I hate learning all this policing stuff it's so boring, I don't care about the history and evolution of policing in America. I can't wait till I'm done with all the criminal justice basic classes and can start doing more forensics.
Anyways this Video always makes my day, Knock yourself out.

Atleast you will never be a vegetable, because even artichokes have hearts.

Spidey

Yay going to see spiderman 3, it better not be a disappointment.

Sand not so much sun or surf

I really want to go to the beach it's been a while. Even though the Oregon coast isn't much to brag about since it mostly consists of rain and sand and water so cold it turns your skin red. It would be a terrible thing to go through life without ever seeing an ocean.

It's a girl!

Lizzie finally had her baby the other day. Adrianna Elizabeth. Alot of newborn babies look like aliens.. I know from working at picture people. It's so hard to tell people that their babies are the cutest and the parents all think that when really they look like wrinkly flaky aliens. It just reminds me of how fast we grow up and sometimes I feel like I act as if I have all the time in the world to do what I want So I procrastinate at life. Then someday it will all hit me like a train and I will be old. I should stop making lists of things that I want to do and start doing them.