Growing up is hard to do.

But, I"m sure you all know that.

I guess my friends accident was a lot worse than I knew.
As far as I know she's still in the ICU
Both of us not being people that pray
please just think happy thoughts for her.
Hopefully she will be moved out of ICU soon and I can go visit her.


I"m struggling with this new girl at work, it's become a big problem and I think
most people are frustrated with her. I can honestly say I've never met anyone like her.
I guess you have to just find the good in every person and focus on that to get you through.

Every year in october my dads side of the family rents a beach house and we all stay in it for about 4 days this has happened every year i can remember since i was like 2. It's always Me, my mom my dad my sister my uncle and my aunt her husband and when matthew was born, matthew. Well this will be the first beach trip that we go on since matthews passed away and my dad is going to be gone rafting the grand canyon and my mother can't get time off work and my sister will be away at college in Tacoma. So, I still really want to go but it's going to be awkward and it has been bringing up really painful memories to plan it. The rest of my family still really wants to go even my aunt I hope it's not just going to be a cry fest.. it will be really different not having Matthew there.

Tonight I am attending a support group meeting with my mom for the first time for people with loved ones who have Alzheimer's. My mom asking me to go with her was her way of letting me know that my grandma has officially been diagnosed with Alzheimer's. This was a huge thing to dump on me. So we'll see how the meeting goes tonight. I knew she was struggling with memory stuff but I guess now it's like set in stone? It makes it official which is really scary and sad.


My sister will be leaving for college soon and since she's going so far away my parents have been spending every waking moment with her which i totally understand but I'm still right here.. i guess i just feel neglected which is really pathetic since I'm like 20 years old. But it's not that she's just leaving for college they are spending a ton of money on her for everything. She just went to Greece and came back so that was a huge deal and my mom spent a ton of time with her after her small trip and she just graduated high school and had a birthday all in these last two months. I guess my mom is my closest friend that I have around here since everyone i was close to has moved away and it sucks because i haven't been able to find people that are just like the people that moved away. I don't think anyone else is like them and I'm flirting with the idea of moving to Eugene which i would really like to do. I guess part of it I don't want to replace them.

I don't know if I want to finish school right now. I feel like I have a lot of things on my plate and I can hardly afford it let alone i bet cost will only go up, i don't know what I want to do for sure and the economy is horrible and I only make a tiny bit above minimum wage if I don't make commission.

I do however feel stable in one area, my job. It's going better right now that I could have imagined. When I first started in TBD and Individualist I was really uncomfortable and very uncomfortable with my manager. Now I feel like I can actually talk to her and work with her. I really like my department I'm understanding the fashions in TBD a lot more than when I first started, it's a lot to get used to! I have a love for very classical clothes and TBD is alll about mixing prints and not being matching at all.

My cousin moved this week from really close to me to california too. It sucks but thank god for the internet and now I have someone to visit in san fransisco.


I know things will get better but for right now I just need to find my balance and find what makes me happy.

update

I haven't been around much. Work has been really busy which is kind of good for a change but also really stressful and then 3 of the girls from my department left, one was fired and 2 quit. So, now we are down to 3 of us that have been there for a while and then one new girl.. who by the way I am going to have to try really hard to find some way to get a long with her. She's really really sweet it's just let me start by saying she's in a sorority and has mostly worked at abercrombie and fitch. the other day she stopped what she was doing came over to me and asked " If the line is busy do I just hang up and try again later or what?" ......... My co worker had to just walk away or else I'm pretty sure she would have laughed so hard she cried. Anyway, It should get back to normal soon and I just found out that one of my good friends got in a really bad car accident last night and was life flighted to Portland so keep happy thoughts for her.

sickening

Hog dog fights - often referred to as "hog catch trials" and "hog dog rodeos" - are public events where dogs are released to attack pigs in a penned arena. The crowd cheers as the dogs, mostly pit bulls, tear at the animals' ears, snouts, groins and tails. For anyone who has witnessed a hog dog fight, it is the agonizing screams of the trapped and terrified pigs that truly encapsulates the whole ugly business. Hog dog fighting is even more inexcusable because it is staged animal fighting billed as family entertainment. Attend almost any hog dog event and you'll see mothers and children in the audience, cheering on the attacking dogs and their trainers.


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Cool Freebie

I am always on the look out for great desktop wallpapers but don't trust all those download sites, plus come on, they are mostly of naked women. Anyway, I was doing research for my geography project and visited the national geographic website and became utterly sidetracked from my project. They have some of the neatest backgrounds available for free on there. You don't have to worry about the size like you do on Google images. I don't know I just stumbled upon it and thought they were really neat. CLICK here to get your own.
this totally made my day.

Sleeping

Yesterday at work was so stressful that I've spent my entire day off today sleeping even though I should be catching up on homework.. but honestly who isn't right now doing something leisurely when they should be doing something else... come on. My manager asked me on Saturday if I could possibly come in on Sunday (My day off) to help close and such and I stupidly said okay. I come in at 1:30 and 20 minutes later one of the girls tells me she's leaving because it has been really slow. Then human resources calls another girl off the floor to talk to her for an undisclosed amount of time. All Then the third and final girl that was there in this 20 minutes gets a walk up appointment for pre-selecting for Anniversary sale. Instead of just preselecting in our departments only she takes them around the whole store. and keeps saying when she's done she's leaving early because it's slow ...? When she finally finishes with them around 4:30 or 5 she clocks out and doesn't help me with any of the closing duties meanwhile the girl that went to human resources didn't come back and when I called up to see if she was still closing with me they said that she and human resources had gone home a couple hours ago.. i guess she was fired and no one bothered to say I wouldn't have any help! All of this would have been fine if we actually were slow then i would have just been at moderate pace but i litteraly was running from one end of the department to the other all day.... I ended up selling 2,200 dollars worth of merchandise from my department.



Anyway, so while I was napping today I was right in that in between sleep and awake. I'm pretty sure I was conscious but sleeping so weird anyways all of a sudden i was trying to turn over to disable the alarm on my cell phone before it went off and I felt like I was paralyzed I couldn't move and all. It was the weirdest feeling because it felt like it was real. Then I tried again and still couldn't move my arms out of sleeping position and finally i was like freaking out in my head and went to scream for help but i couldn't get my body to open my mouth at all. So creepy when it feels like it's real. Then I just started hearing static and i decided to like try to move my entire body in one big push and i "woke up" or moved. I don't even want to feel that again.


Now I have two weeks worth of homework to catch up on plus all of next weeks homework because anniversary sale starts on the 18th and I know I work like 10 hour days for a whole straight week.

Zenni Optical

I've been looking for new glasses for awhile-- especially sunglasses since it's summer time but prescription sunglasses are so expensive! I was so excited when I saw Zenni on Fox . They offer prescription glasses online for as little as 8 dollars wow. Last time I bought glasses they were around 200 just for the frames! Visit ZenniOptical.com to view their huge variety stylish frames and almost any kind of lens you could need.

Halva

My sister just got back last night from a 10 day trip in Greece and brought back halva which I had never had before. It's so delicious if you've never had it here are some directions on how to make it at home.

The fourth of the Seventh Month

I honestly hate fourth of July. I think it is the most stupid un-American over rated holiday ever. I always get bored way to fast and since I'm not as criminally brain dead as other Americans watching things explode and bright lights doesn't get me excited past like the first one. Are the fireworks supposed to represent like "the bombs bursting in air" if so.. what a stupid thing to celebrate and re-enact? Why would we want to make it look like we are in war again.. which we are. Not that I'm "un American" or anything i just think that fourth of july doesn't even have to do anything with celebrating the united states anymore it's like one day where rednecks come out and wear their red white and blue bandannas and soccer moms in their flag old navy shirts. Shouldn't you be celebrating your country more so on EVERY other day but fourth of july which kind of cancels out patriotism and why do we buy all these things on fourth of july for picnics and apparel that all have made in china stamps on them... seriously.
Anyway guess I'm kind of cranky.

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Jury Duty

This morning I have jury duty.
Except last night I slept for an hour and a half
because my tonsils are so swollen I was having trouble breathing.
Now i have to drive a half hour to the courthouse.. this should be interesting.

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Loss of Brain matter

I saw this trailer when I went to go see Wall-E tonight.
I started crying in the middle of the trailer because I was laughing so hard.
This has to be a joke! What happened Disney! Seriously WHAT would posses
you to put this movie out?!
I can't even speak.
Their slogan is "50 Percent Warrior 50 % lover .. 100 % chihuahuas

Things I fell in love with over the weekend

1. In Bruges
2. The Freebie Blogger
3. Wall-E
4. Sunshine
5. Olay Quench Body Lotion
6. Man Babies
7. Phantom Planet -Our house

Janet Taylor

I found the following post on The Nodding Tree Remedies Myspace. They are a local band from Salem and pretty good. Anyway I just thought I would repost it here because it made me laugh out loud ..
currently in Salem we have a mayor named Janet Taylor who I happen to be incredibly against and somehow she just won our current election again. What a shame.

So enjoy this propaganda brought to you by The Nodding Tree Remedies minds.

"Salem's mayor, Mrs. Taylor, is a heartless hoebag.
Her reign of power has been going on for too long.
Our children are not safe in Oregon's capital, Janet Taylor feeds on thier blood.
She's been spotted swimming the Willamette river with a dead puppy in her teeth.
She is immune to Salem's rising pollution problems due to the deadly acid that coarses through her veins, therefor she has no concern for a cleaner Oregon.
Janet Taylor does not support the local music scene, she approved the destruction of the kiosks( round billboards) off downtown Liberty street, and has openly attacked independent business(the heart of the Salem music scene) in Salem by supporting the surge of multimillion dollar, non local business.
Janet Taylor is hurting our community and threatens Salem's future with intentions of personal benifit. Mrs. Taylor's wealth and power cannot stop us, but if we all wake up dead one morning we will have a prime suspect, Janet Taylor.
She supports war and President Bush.
Her agenda is obsurd. She caters to the rich with the construction of overpriced plazas and convention centers, while many of the low income residents get the short end of the stick.
Her veiws and ideals are Reaganistic and immoral.....
....and she kills minorities, supports the meth trade, police brutality, and is a sex addict( not the good kind). Her soul is a swamp of ignorance and filth, etc,etc.....
Mrs. Taylor is too strong to defeat, we can only hide our children for so long.
Run for the hills, Janet Taylor is an evil witch and is not fit for her position of power.
Nodding Tree Remedies say "no" to Janet Taylor.
Pray for her wretched soul.
In Salem, the Man is keeping us down and has a name,
Janet Taylor.

God help us"
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Freebie!

New Shoes make everything better.

I haven't left my house in 3 days and some twisted way I ended up with Strep Throat. This makes it the 5th time this year so far and that means
TONSILLECTOMY
that word is so warm isn't it.
a 15 min procedure for a week and a half's worth of recovery time.
Has anyone had this done as an adult? What was the recovery like for you.
I've been having trouble breathing cause my tonsils are touching.
The only thing that brightened my day today was the shoes I finally ordered from
Nordstrom came and I ripped open the package and was extremely excited
then realized that the shoes in the box that I had received would have been able to fit
the jolly green giant. They were 2 sizes to big. Before I checked the size on the shoe i seriously
questioned the size of my feet. Now this normally would have only made my day a little sad but
these shoes have been sent to The Rack and now I can't even exchange them!
I have been waiting for these shoes since decemberish when we got them!

scheming

There's a big giveaway coming up! So stay tuned!

I'm giving away something juicy
Something Coture

Who Killed the muesli eaters?

I will admit I'm a Muesli junkie! But, the last few times I've gone to the grocery store I have not been able to find it anywhere. I look up and down the aisle and yet they have a huge granola section and even a giant array of kashi cereals you think they'd have one tiny spot for muesli. I'm I the only person left on earth that eats it? I swear I have never had trouble finding it before.

it's a very weird moment indeed when you realize
that the people are you closest to in your life have started
to drift away not only from you but from everyone else as well
when your small close knit group of friends has somehow turned into a ripple where
everyone spreads farther and farther out.
Is there a way to reverse it?
Do you move on?
Do you follow them so you can stay close.
What if it's like the only people you've ever met that make you
feel truly like yourself when you are around them.

6/18/2008

I'm still secretly kind of crying about the short hair.
I hate it. Its not so much that I mind having the short hair,
although I admit I miss my lazy pony tail, it's just the cut that I hate.
I don't know what possessed the stylist to cut two pieces in the front like an inch and a half
shorter than the rest of my hair and make it all piecey when I told her I wanted
it all the same length? And when I walked in with hair to my shoulders
I specifically said I don't want it much shorter than it is now
maybe like.. half an inch shorter. Now I have it to my chin...
I must have the worlds shortest neck indeed.
I was hoping the weather would be nice today but in traditional Oregon fashion
it's a gloomy day.. IN JUNE.
Yesterday I went up to the rack and I was so excited I found the pants that
I was looking for and i got to buy a size smaller than usual! Woo.
That's always exciting but now I'm kind of freaking out because most of my clothes are too big and I don't have the money to afford a new wardrobe. Frustrating.

Down Under

Today is my first day of my two week vacation from work.
I'm already "dying" of boredom.
I slept in late got up ate some food looked out the window then
watched a terrible movie called Catacombs.
What a waste of time.. plus who puts the singer PINK as a lead
role in a movie??!
Atleast the main girl (shannyn Sossamon) had super cute hair.

quote of the day

Take it to heart.



"death is not the greatest loss in life. the greatest loss is what dies inside of us while we live."
-norman cousins

Hello Summer

Goodbye hair!


The first bits of summer showed themselves today, finally a nice day on my day off.
I signed up for summer classes today
what a way to spend vacation.
So, I thought I would chop of my hair
i lost 5 inches!

have a good summer!

Bvlgari!

I've always loved Bvlgari perfumes! I will admit though that some of them are a little TOO old lady for me though. I decided that i would check out Bvlgari watches and couldn't believe the prices at my work! I browsed on the internet and came across Concord watches . The site is filled with tons of luxury time pieces at affordable discount prices! They even have a clearance section for all you frugal shoppers. Not that you'll really need it because the watches that the Watchery offers are made to last. They offer a great variety of classic pieces and very trendy pieces from all of your favorite designer brands like Michele, Gucci, Chanel and Bvlgari ! What girl doesn't dream of having a Chanel watch on her lovely wrist? The Bvlgari piece that I've pictures above is one of many Bvlgari jewelry watches the Watchery carries and just happens to be my favorite from the site! It's so clean with a little bit of attitude with such a fantastic shade of green. I love how well the green strap (which is like the hottest shade of green for this summer!) offsets the green mother of pearl in the center. It's discounted down almost 40 percent! What a steal for something you're going to love. As if it couldn't get better The Watchery also offers you a free watch with most purchases and if you don't want one of the free watches they offer you can select from a set of 80 percent specially discounted pieces!

The end

The last bit of the funeral stuff wrapped up today. It was really heart breaking saying good bye. How do you say goodbye to a 12 year old .. as a permenent goodbye? My aunt is being so strong I'm so very proud of her. At the burial today just for family my aunt tried to get matthews favorite hannah montana cd to play but it wouldn't work and all seven of us tried to get it to work! I guess he just really didn't want to hear any hannah montana. It's going to be so weird having no cousins all of a sudden. My grandparents only grandchildren now are my sister and I. My heart is broken for them and my aunt and my entire family. Every fall we all get together and go rent a beach house. I've gotten so acustomed to having Matthew there it's going to be so weird! I remember some of the first years he came when he was born even which houses we stayed in. Anyway, I just wanted to post some of my memories with him:

The last memory I have of Matthew is playing sponge bob monopoly! He beat me at it too! I thought it was awesome he got all of the jokes in the game with the naming of the properties and he loved getting "snail po headquarters".

He was the smartest kid that I have probably ever met. He had a real passion for learning all these crazy facts which must run in the family because i'm the same way. The only difference is that he would remember ever single word, Every fact and he was just amazed by everything and wanted to understand it.

This past fall at the beach house Matthew and my dad had a giant jawbreaker eating competition. He was restless to give up even though only about a quarter of the jawbreaker actually fit into his mouth haha. We played a game of poker and he was beating all of us!

I remember when he was born my sister and I used to FIGHT over who would get to spend time with him because we were young and we don't have any cousins younger than us really and this was our first cousin on the dads side of the family!

My heart goes out to the rest of my family and all the classmates of Matthew Chester.
Thank you so much for making what little time he had here the best that it could be
and i know you did because it showed in his smile.


We always knew that he was sick and that someday this time would come but I always pictured it as a slow decline and that we would know. But I guess that is foolish to think because life doesn't work like that. Spend every minute possible with the people you love because in the end that's all you have and it's all that matters. He died in his sleep very suddenly from complications due to Pulmonary Hypertension. A disorder that effects the heart and lungs.

I'm going to miss you so much, i only wish I would have spent more time with you and not thought that i would always have a long time to get to know you. I love you more than I ever got a chance to express.

Great gift idea

The other day I was looking for good fathers day gifts and trying to figure out something to get my hiking/rafting enthusiast father for the occasion. I came across La police gears 511 Shorts and thought they would be perfect! They have 7 pockets that are extremely durable for all those rocks and knick knacks he likes to collect on his trips! Now these shorts are made for military/government workers like the army or police force but they are such a great steal and you can wear them too, they also have them in kids sizes. What a great idea for all those summer trips! A few select pairs are going for as low as 12.99 right now so better snatch up the great deal for any of your favorite service men or that special father of yours!

They say when it rains it pours

So my week

* Found out I am getting laid off for half of summer and fall.
*Cousin died funeral is tomorrow getting emotionally prepared for that.
*Best friend moved away

I'm so upset about being laid off I just found out.
I guess I should treat it like a mini vacation but i cannot financially afford to just be thrown around
because the retail business is sucking now.. PEOPLE BUY THINGS! I need a job.

So much for the polar bear

Night terrors

If you are dreaming when you die in your sleep what do you dream of?

Miss you

I'm going to miss you so much!
P.s. Happy birthday!

A mess

I promise to start writing regularly again.
Life has just been a mess right now
Today I had a horrible day at work we just kept getting slammed with returns,
I lost ten bucks and spilt coffee on my white shirt.
Got home sat on the couch and my mom and dad walked up and proceeded to tell me
that My 12 year old cousin had just died.
I'm so distraught right now. I thought I was done with deaths and I dont
even know how to handle it.
I feel so just lost.
or numb I'm not sure
We all knew it was coming but it was so sudden..
I always figured that he would just get sick and then it would be a few months.
but my mom saw him about 4 days ago and said he didn't look too well
and then i guess he was just gone.
So when things are better
and more organized i'll have a fuller update.

I feel guilty that I haven't been keeping up with school lately. I already know I failed one of my classes because I missed the final which was really frustrating. I hate online classes. I wish I had a way to actually go to school. I'm getting really sick of walking to work every day too to a job that doesn't make me happy to be there. I think i'm just cranky cause it's nordstrom's half yearly sale and I'm so sick of having bruises on my hands from putting so much clothing away! I've still been seeing evan. It's going okay I guess I actually had a really good date with him the previous night except i got hurt.. of course how embarassing. But he was so cute about it he was so worried. Wednesday was his birthday so I baked him cupcakes today and got him a bunch of 35 mm film for his camera so i get to drop that off tomorrow morning :)

Tour of New York City

While I briefly lived in New Jersey I got to visit New York City a bit!

It was so much fun! My cousin and I met on the train in New Jersey and rode over to

the city. When we got there we immediately got on the subway which was so fun because we have nothing like that over here. First off we went to the Museum of Natural History to explore, I had been to the one in Vancouver Canada before but I loved the one in NYC. After that we took a stroll through central park and saw about 3 different events going on in the middle of the park, it was gorgeous there. By then we were starving and went to eat pastrami sandwiches and pickles at carnigee deli! I have never had a pastrami sandwich that delicious before. After dinner we went to shop in China town where I found fabulous channel knock off earrings and then we headed to little Italy for some gelato! To finish off the night we took another subway ride to Times Square. Wow. It was incredible it was like being in the daytime in the middle of the night because of all the lights. I couldn’t believe all the people that were there. It was insane! I wish I had gone back and done a bit more of the touristy stuff though. I really wanted to go on the sex and the city tour I had heard about where you get to visit locations that they used during the filming of the TV series! At the time I didn’t really know where to find reliable information about the different tours that were offered. But, I just found this site Trusted Tours & Attractions.

It has all the hottest Things to do in New York City with easy maps and information about the tours along with photos! If you aren’t planning on visiting New York any time soon they also have exciting tours in 22 other cities across the United States. Check out things to do in San Fransisco if you're headed to the West Coast. They have the best options for sightseeing tours. Right now if you sign up for Trusted Tours & Attractions newsletter you will be entered for a chance to win a free $150 dollar itunes gift card!

Happiness

“the word 'happiness' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.”
-jung

Just thought I would share this quote I found today.
Been having a tough time lately
and it made me smile :)

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My body is a cage

I have to admit that I feel guilty for having been slightly neglectful of my blog. Sometimes the real world just.. gets in the way ha. Work has been picking up which is a very nice change. We moved up our half yearly sale to May 21st which I'm hoping will help but I don't know how we'll do going up against stores like Macy's. Everyone usually expects it in the summer.
Evan and I have seen each other a couple more times but I feel that he's too handsy and just would prefer a modern day "fuck buddy" pardon my language. It's kind of disappointing but oh well. I was talking to my friend Carly about everything and she told me about this guy Christian Carter who's like a dating guru. I started listening and reading his stuff and it actually makes sense. Carly and I were discussing it and it's helped her relationship a lot and just with guys in general. You should check it out.
Here's how to catch and keep great men, all in plain, "real", easy to understand language.
that's the website you can learn about it at.
I've actually been enjoying reading it piece by piece so we'll see how it actually works. I've been trying a couple of the things.
Other than that things are okay.
I'm back home. My roommate turned out to be a crazy alcoholic. It was just a very bad situation.
I'm moving next month though. Kind of looking forward to that but I hate that there's so much time in between.. just enough time I'll have to un pack some stuff to use it but not enough time to actually put everything away just to get it out again so soon.
My throat has been feeling better today. I"m kind of upset with myself that I've been neglecting school so much. I can't afford not to pass a class or else I lose financial aid.. which is the only thing keeping me in school right now! Must go write some papers!
On another note. I've been feeling a lot more like myself recently. It's really relieving. I've started painting again which was drastically over due. I forgot how much I miss it though and actually started listening to acceptable music... for a while there i just stopped caring! Kind of scary to think about the stuff I subjected myself to!
Ahhh so go check out the Arcade Fire.

That's them in an elevator. Pretty creative i like the ripping paper.
Oh well It feels good to be myself again even though it's not complete. I'm missing my friends since they've all spread out to Eugene and Portland. One of my good friends Jeff's lease is up this month and He's moving to Portland too which I mean I kind of feel stranded here. It's so hard to make new friends when you don't really go to school at the school. I miss last summer a lot, lots of random road trips and it was just the most fun.. i'm kind of weary about this summer.

Transform Your Home

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I am totally voting for the video with the little girls’ poem! I believe it's the second to last. So cute. Heaven knows with three triplets in a house that needs repair is dangerous enough but think of all the smells! Help this fantastic family out in getting the home makeover of their dreams by voting for them! Whichever family gets the most votes until June 8th 2008 will win! Voters can place their vote once a day until the deadline! Pick your favorite family then click on their little bubble to vote for them; the videos are hilarious and very creative! Renuzit is even offering a printable coupon no the site so you can try your own Renuzit Tri-scent and transform your own home! Go and vote and pick up some tips for yourself as well as a coupon!

Strep throat

Ugh So i have strep throat. I get it way too often along with tonsillitis. It's so sad that it feels normal for me to have it. I really should have my tonsils taken out but they want waaay too much money for about a 15 minute procedure. The sad part is that I probably spend more on anual doctors visits for the problem than the actual surgery. It's given me some home time again tho and i've started painting again. I can't believe how much I missed it.

Bright Feet Slippers Giveaway!

Do you ever stumble around your house in the middle of the night bumping into objects trying to reach the light switch? Well Save some bumps and bruises with Bright Feet Slippers! These ingenious slippers have an LED flashlight built into each toe! A sensor in the slipper alerts the light to turn on only when it's dark and there is pressure in the slipper so you can save battery power. Now you can get up and make it to the fridge for that midnight snack without turning on the lights and waking everyone else up! Not only are these slippers convenient but they are so cozy and come in different colors for boys and girls. They are great for locating emergency items like candles and first aid kits in a blackout or wear them for those late night errands! For me I would wear them all the time to take the trash out at night! How great would these be as a Mothers day gift, It's only a couple weeks away! It's a great gift for that new high school graduate to light their way down the dorm hall. Right now if you order two or more pairs of Bright Feet Slippers you get free shipping to anywhere in the US. These not so ordinary slippers have even been featured on QVC, NBC's Today show, The View and in Better Homes and Gardens as well as Real Simple magazine (my absolute favorite magazine!) They were most recently featured in a brand new book called "Gadget Nation" which just came out in bookstores last week!

Boston Ideas LLC. has given me the chance to let 2 lucky readers win their own pair of Bright Feet Slippers

How to Enter:
Visit Bright Feet Slippers website and and answer these simple questions!
1. Who is the Inventor of Bright Feet Slippers?
2. What is something you frequently bump into at night?
3. What color is your favorite pair?
Please leave your E-mail so that I can contact the winner! Blog about this giveaway for an extra entry, just leave me a comment letting me know you blogged about it!

Winners will be picked Sunday May 4th at 11:59 pm and contacted by Email. If A winner hasn't responded in 3 days a new winner will be picked.
Good luck!


Don't forget to pick up a pair for mothers day and a pair for you and receive free shipping!

Bed and Chocolate

Ugh I have the worst cramps. This only happens like a couple times a year. I feel icky. I'm in a chocolate coma and preparing mentally and physically for rewards night at Nordstrom on Friday. I work a split shift and have to shop with people till 11 pm.

retraction

I wronged. I upset. And I'm genuinely sorry my biggest foe is speaking and for me typing before I think.

Police Gear

Ever wonder where to get the best Military and police gear for the best price?
Look no further than LApolicegear.com they have the best uniforms, great prices and pictures so you can fully view the product. You have to check out the BDU pants they are my favorite! They look so comfortable but not only that they are the backbone basic pant of our military service men and women. They're great for all you outdoor enthusiasts too, with lots of colors to choose from like basic khaki or blue all the way to camo!

100th post giveaway!

Yeah! 100TH post! Thanks everyone for reading! So as a thank you to all your readers I'm having 3 solid weeks of giveaways! This weeks giveaway is for a brand spankin' new copy of SIMs 2 family fun stuff! Requires the Sims 2 though. I am a huge Sims 2 addict! Create your kids dreams bedrooms and jump on the beds with them as well as dress your families in all matching outfits for kids and adults a like!

Prize: EA games PC version The sims 2 family fun stuff. Rated T for teen. (windows)
To enter:
Write a post about my giveaway! That's it! Comment with a link to your post. Please please Leave your email so that I am able to contact the winner.
Winner will be chosen Wednesday April 23 and contacted.

Earth Day

Today is earth day and what do I find when I get up??! A giant catalog that nordstrom has so kindly printed and sent to eery employee that we get about ever other month that's full of fashion trends (as if we don't see them in the store) and about outstanding employees and stores and our benefits.... yes every other month and it happened to come on earth day.

Update

Things have been really busy around here between moving and school and work, not to mention that work has been painfully awful recently. All the employees have been brainwashed to not use the words "it's slow" but we are no supposed to use the phrase "we have less than desirable traffic!" They expect everyone to still be making their sales goals etc but they can't provide us with traffic. With the state of the economy people are afraid to shop. I used to be able to sell around 170 dollars and hour on average but now I am around 60 dollars an hour on average. It really hurts financially to me too. I'm thinking I may need to be looking at new jobs but i don't want to abandoned this job! But financially it's not the best decision. I found out this summer I am going to Huston. That should be fun, not that I ever really wanted to go to Huston but at least it's something to go do. We are going in August. I'll either come back tan or VERY VERY red considering I'm so fair; I don't' think I've had a tan since I was about 6! Tanning beds scare me too, plus I always feel like the girls and occasional men that work at the tanning places are really really RUDE it's like walking on to the set of The Hills too! Lots of drama and just about ever inch of them is fake. Yesterday I went to Alf's with a co-worker it's this hole in the wall 50's diner in the middle of nowhere McMiniville. It was a lot of fun. At the restaurant they have a separate area where it's a huge playroom and the owner brings her pet monkey there for the day, his name is Elvis. It's just a very comfortable place because most people that eat there have been going there since they were little. Whenever you try to recruit new people to go they freak out when you tell them there is a monkey there and think it's so unsanitary etc. ha! Yumm and they make their own ice cream there!

Friday's Feast

Appetizer

Name a color you find soothing.
Anything colored any shade of green!

Soup

Using 20 or less words, describe your first driving experience.
Very young, out in the country sitting on parents laps!
Salad

What material is your favorite item of clothing made out of?
Cotton and Spandex

Main Course

Who is a great singer or musician who, if they were to come to your town for a concert, you would spend the night outside waiting for tickets to see?
Kings of Convenience.. they never ever come here.

Dessert

What is the most frequent letter of the alphabet in your whole name (first, middle, maiden, last, etc.)?
That would be.. The letter R there are 4 in my whole name

Money for blogging!

Doesn’t everyone want to earn money while utilizing their passion for blogging? Now you can with PayPerPost! My friend Kristin told me about this great site where you can get paid to blog ! At first I thought it was too good to be true but then I went ahead and signed up for myself and I’m already earning money in only a couple days. You just submit your blog and when it’s approved you add a tiny one line code to your blog then it’s all up to you! You choose the opportunities that you want to do! Then you make your post, all while learning about awesome new products and services! You could easily make 20 dollars for your very first post! Kristin and I have since bonded over our passion for blogging and using PayPerPost! They have so many opportunities for you it really keeps in interesting every time! I can’t wait to make my fist 100 to go towards my new bed! Or maybe I should splurge on something! I’ve had my eye on a Wii! I’m so glad I decided to try PayPerPost for myself. I can’t believe how many opportunities I’ve already missed out on. If you love blogging too and want some extra income for the summer I really recommend PayPerPost. You’ll never find an easier way. You can even donate the money you earn to charities! What's not to love about that?

Meet My New Roommate!

This is Jessica and I! My new roommate. We have been friends for 20 years. Our parents met in Lamaze class, so we were born 2 weeks apart and have been friends since. Our apartment is in downtown salem, it's so cute and we can paint! It's in a little 4 plex so it's quite and i have a huge window.. which to me is really exciting coming from living in a basement with a window the size of a cereal box with views of dirt and peoples feet! Oh yeah, And it's 2 bed room 2 bathroom! TIs' funny that we've been friends for so long because we are complete opposites! Our friends would most likely not get a long and we have complete different interests, tastes in movies, and music but somehow it works for us.

Can't sleep

I've watched fatal attraction, Gotten into bed, read a little, drank some water and I still can't sleep. I'm not feeling to well either; I think I'm getting a cold. I"m freezing cold as well and my computer is right next to the heater so I decided to get on since I had to get up to defrost my body anyway. I'm just browsing away through stuff that I can use for work and I'm going to post my 5 favorite trends for spring and summer. But please don't be super trendy.. make them your own.

1. Art Class wear
2. High Waisted trousers
3. Double wrap belt
4. The Perfect Summer Dress
5. White

Celebrity Stylist

Ah! What a fantastic day at work. I know this probably sounds stupid but it was the most exciting part of my day so I have to revel in it! Today at work (nordstrom's) I got to help out a celebrity.. okay not really a celebrity anymore but back in the day. A teen actress from a very well known movie. I guess she lives here now. She was so friendly and sincere! So fun to work with! I feel a tiny b it cool today at least! So, it was the teenage girl in the first Jurassic Park movie. Her name is Ariana Richards. I just looked up her info on IMDB.com too and I guess she was in the movie Angus. If you haven't seen that movie you have to! It's fantastic. It can be hard to find though! For some reason I have the soundtrack.

Young Ariana Richards and Wilmer Valderrama

Manic Monday

Is there anything for which you would willingly give your life?
- I'd give my life to defend the rights for other generations that I think are important.
Not being a religious person I would still give my life to defend the right for others to have religious freedom, freedom of speech etc.. and my future family.

How would you communicate with someone if you didn't share a common language?
-It would be like a pictionary free for all!

Where is your ideal place/location to have a wedding?
-On our family farm :)

Looking forward to summer

My favorite place on this earth that I get to visit regularly is a tiny unknown yet not abandoned cemetery out in the country somewhere between Sheridan and McMinnville. It lies just off Christensen road in the middle of the country. From the road you wouldn’t even know it existed, there are no signs no way to peek through the trees to see what lies beyond, only a dirt road. Then, even more secretly beyond that dirt road is another smaller dirt road that is about the length of the main hallway in your house. Up an anthill sized hill you pull in and it’s a tiny cemetery. Half the size of a football field. This is Deer Creek cemetery. Although you wouldn’t know it by that name unless you grew up around it. I usually go there in the summer because we own a farm right across the street where you can swim in the creek. When you enter the cemetery it doesn’t feel dark or creepy or like a sad place. It feels hopeful. The air always smells sweet with all the hay that has been harvested around. Around the perimeter of the cemetery are big trees that kind of encase it in a circle. It looks well maintained although I’ve never seen anyone else up there. The sun always lightens it up in the middle of the trees and kind of makes it glow. It’s kind of like a mini plateau surrounded by an array of orchard type trees. You won’t find abandoned trinkets mini statues fake flowers and ribbons adorning these graves, they are much too old. You can expect to find hundreds of tree frogs that lie on top of the cement grave coverings sunning themselves and as soon as you walk by they jump into the cracks of the sunken cement surfaces. There aren’t very many graves here for the space that’s provided. They are very laid out and there are only about 5 different last names to the whole space. Most are old grave markers and are sectioned off by cement blocks on top next to the head stones. Some of the markers are unreadable and broken. I surprisingly think this is a beautiful place for a picnic. It’s not that I make a habit of hanging around in cemeteries it just happens to be a very beautiful place. There is one marker on the lower right hand side of the cemetery that states something like “so and so 1803-1887 and was ready” Then another person has engraved their name into the headstone who shares the same last name as the owner of the headstone. The grass isn’t very green it’s quite short and prickly but it’s better than dirt. On all sides of you is a view of plain fields. There is an abandoned patio table and chair up near where there is space for one car to park.

I just hope he is actually on drugs

Anyone who actually KNOWS what this guy is talking about wins a candy bar.
I swear he's related to president Bush jr.

Wordless Wednesday

New tune monday

Great video from The avalanches the entire song is comprised of sound clips put together.

Watch Oprah Pee

Last night around 1 Am my friend Jeff and I got the fabulous Idea to bake cookies and drive to Eugene??! I have no idea where the two came from. We went to Eugene listening to Shania Twain the entire way till we got to our friends house. After a couple glasses of wine we decided to watch this movie from 1998 called Beloved. Now, not only does Oprah Winfrey star in the film.. she also produced it. The movie has absolutely NO plot line and pretty much doesn't make sense and is about 3 hours long. It's good for a laugh though deffinatley. It's supposed to be about slavery and be empowering.. but, the movie is about Oprahs daughter who she killed and her daughters ghost is haunting the house till she comes from hell to seek her mother to pretty much live as a "nice" demon with her. OH, did I mention this daughter is mentally retarded too? Pretty much the daughters star line was "Touch me on the inside place and call my nammeeeee" Along with that are random shots of oprah peeing, giving birth, vomiting and killing children.
Great pick for family time :)
and the shot of oprah peeing is pretty much absolutely random she just gets this look on her face and runs over to the field and they film her peeing... like she had to take a bathroom break but they kept rolling the film and forgot to edit it out.

It's too bad it was supposed to be so serious because I pretty much couldn't stop laughing.


It's too bad there aren't any trailers or anything online I could find really...

Wordless wendnesday!

An ode to the snail.

My closet

Needs to be tackled.. Obviously. I'm afraid I might find a village of sub human species underneath all of last years clothes.

Is this you??

I found this blog that people post photos from cameras or memory sticks they've found in hopes of finding the owner. It seems to work and helped a lot of people claim their missing memories. So cool, even if you haven't lost anything it's just interesting to look at other peoples pictures. ha.
FOUND CAMERAS AND ORPHAN PICTURES
Such a neat idea. You can even browse through the scroll bar on the right hand side of the blog to view any found cameras from your area or areas you have visited.

I am Standoffish apparently

My manager is completely rude. Period. H.R. is useless. Today My boss was having little "performance chats" with us about selling and everything. She told me that She thinks I don't really try very hard and that she feels i just "get lucky" and people buy stuff. That really hurt my feelings. I do try the best that I can at my job and I know that there's little things I could do to be better but, that is just beyond hurtful....I"m starting to feel like a robot. Then later she told me that I am "stand-offish" was her word... apparently we are 16 and in high school again. Ridiculous. That just is stupid but it really hurt my feelings. I'm kind of stuck and don't know what to do. If I could tell her anything I would say: "I'm sorry I can't be the person that you want me to be, I am happy with who I am and that's all that I can be.. and that's who you hired." But that's the nice version. Sometimes I think she just gives me crappy shifts and glares at me and nit picks EVERYTHING just so I'll leave because she doesn't like me. When i got home tonight I took my dog on a really long walk. It was nice I think i'll start that more often than only walking to work.

New tune monday

Manu Chao (love him!) - Rainin' in paradize

great song. Sad video.

or... alternate version